A girl.

There's this girl I know. And she has zero sense of self. I don't think she knows who she is, so she depends on other people to define her existence. I do the same thing, so I consider that to be a valid flaw. What is very wrong, is that she doesn't know how to care for the people around her that make her who she is, so she ends up going through friends like thick chicks go through cupcakes.

How can someone be so self-centered if they have no self?

It makes me frown. Mostly because it makes her unlikable to the general public. And I think people should like her for who she is, even if she's a fucked up mess, because I like her for who she is. But how can I ever hope for someone to actually be liked for their personality, flaws and everything? All people care about is having someone to chill with or talk to about their problems.

Not me.

IDK if I've mentioned it here before, but I have come to the conclusion that the feelings I have for my friends are what most (real) people would consider "love", as in like, that special love reserved for boyfriends/girlfriends, only without the sex. That's why I had such a hard time with "love" before, it's because I already "love" everyone that I get close to, by their standards. Which is dumb. No wonder everyone hates me, I care about them too much for their shitty-low comfort level.

New Goal: Hide from my friends the extent to which I care about them.

Everything is just so gay.

Also, "Goddamnit are you serious? It would be just Laz and Maggie that I see every day at school. God fucking damnit."
^ This is me being funny. Honestly though if I had to see Willow and Peter every day I'd be pissed. lol.

GOOD NIGHT, DISORGANIZATION, NYUUUU~<3